So I smoke. That is no mystery. But I realized again today is that it is just another testiment to the fact that I don't really have much respect for myself. I hear the voices outside of me, people that truly care. People who refresh the evidence of my generosity and full heart. Why can't I feel that, live that in my own body?
Therapy has not really been a healer in that arena. Self actualization has. Working helps. But, how to make it a solid wall that assists in my persuit to become whole and at peace?
I sure have learned alot in my life. And I have accomplished so much that others find impossible to penetrate. But, this self respect issue is a deep deep river. I must navigate successfully soon, so I do earn the respect of my child. If not, there will be hell to pay in the long run.
thoughts? similar experiences? anything!? thanks in advance for your insights.
as always, peace and love. memsahib.
Well, it's all in perception. We all pick our vices. Some people smoke, others drink. Some cook, clean- whatever, they take it to the limit. It doesn't mean they don't respect themselves, it's just a part of who they are. As long as you truly realize that it's ok to be YOU, no matter how big or small, rich or poor- no matter what, you're a vaulable person with a good heart, and a lot to offer, that's all that matters.
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Of course we all remember what Mark Twain said, "Quiting smoking is easy; I've done it a hundred times." I too quit and quit and quit and quit until, finally, I actually quit. It's been a coupla years now and I am happy with it. I think we don't quit until the its really something we can live with. You'll do it when it happens. JN
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ReplyDeleteBe kind to yourself.
ReplyDeleteAs a person who's ALWAYS struggle to love and respect herself,I found being kind to myself was the best thing I could ever do.
The rest will come:)