Noticing

Tonight I thought I was finally having some honest dialogue with a person who called themselves my friend. Asked me a question, I answered the best I could. And finally felt some relief about this situation! I felt like there was a part of me that finally made some sense. A situation made a lot more sense. It wasn't necessarily what I wanted to happen, but honestly I care about this person and their happiness is more important than my desires.

As i lightened up very very much, my son said to me, mom you are acting crazy, like you are drunk. I was taken off guard. I started thinking, you know when i am drunk, i must act relieved and happy. And he hasn't seen me that way UNLESS i was drunk.

Wow, thats a pretty hefty reality. I am going to have to take some time to ponder all that!

ill get back to you as soon as I have more to say about that. :)

Mentor

I met with a SCORE mentor yesterday to discuss an idea I have. He was an excellent business consultant! No nonsense, very direct, gave me practical steps and advice. He did put it to me this way, You have to remember this is something you are going to spend your time doing. Make sure it something you like and are passionate about.

Part of me is so GUNG ho about moving forward, the scared part of me is trying to find reasons to NOT to.

My ultimate goal is to have a studio;
Painting,
Music,
Sculpture,
Computer,
Photo Shoot ability

This idea, if it takes off, (and it will) shall bring this piece into my life. I so need an organizer!!!!

Bring it universe. MOTIVATION!!!! xo

M