There are many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts broken by love,
but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream - whatever that dream might be.
Pearl S. Buck

Monday, September 29

Dreams of Hollywood

Tonight’s dream had a shower, and then I was in Hollywood again. I was with a man that another friend of mine wanted to be with. She had to sons and was hitting on him while he and I were somewhere together. I had already felt that he wouldn’t be a match for me. but She had two sons that were very difficult and I felt that he would be a great father, so in my mind in the dream, he was perfect for her. Even though I desired the same thing I realized it wouldn’t be fair for anyone if I lied about my feelings just to have security. I was in a restaurant in Hollywood and there were some famous people there, and groups of people gawking at them. It was a concept restaurant where the middle of the place was lined with booths that went along a famous route (why famous I don’t remember but I think it had something to do with motorcycles).


I walked to the back of the restaurant and there was a man there I had known. He was standing as still as a statue (It looked like Donald B. to me) he was staring at me. I think he didn’t even realize he was staring at me until I said his name then he went all “actor” and went into some kind of act. It was a very odd feeling.

What i do find interesting about my dreams.. Lots of bathroom scenes.. and parking lot themes. I often wonder why that is. I also dreamt of Oprah Winfrey for MONTHS before coming to Santa Barbara... I think that I am going to have to move to Hollywood at some point... sigh. I sure don't like that idea. :(

Monday, September 15

Invisible Sigh

For so long now
aching for peace
in my heart 

the invisible sigh

coming over me
is the cloud
darkening hope again

the invisible sigh

when the voice
said you were mine
i never had doubts

the invisible sigh

belief of you
the hope rang
despite broken promises

the invisible sigh

i trusted in you
words indifferent
proof of depth

the invisible sigh

you walked towards
shiny distracting birds
I become memory

the invisible sigh

my heart is yours
i can let it go 
finding feet forward

the invisible sigh

a new heart
for me will be
delivered as a gift

the invisible sigh

truth will arrive
embracing hope
letting it fly again

the invisible sigh

egg laid gently
into the nest
born into season

the invisible sigh

and the wings
flutter past you
as an invisible sigh.