Am I awake?

I just can't seem to get enough rest and I am not really doing anything strenuous. I am not up to the speed I used to be. Maybe its being a mother, maybe its the size of my home and the amount of people fish and stuff that exists in that space. A lot of maybe's. Mostly I am tired of struggling financially. I will get past that. YES I will.

Today is step one to realizing that dream. I will keep my eyes focused on the diet. I will keep my mind keen on what money comes in and goes out. I will hold a good intention for someone. I will make lists and cross off the things that must be addressed so I don't carry that burden around causing me extra stress and anxiety.

Now. More water, more sleep, more beach time. I love summer at the shore.

WW Thursdays

I begin another weight loss chapter in my life. Losing weight is a struggle for me. I have a highly sensual nature and food has always been a comfort. Time to change the way I look at it. In light of that? Weight Watchers meetings start today.

Granted, I joined because the meetings are at work and I don't have to travel to them, but also my company reimburses us 50% of the fees at the end of the session. And this time around, there are incentives. I love incentives.

Good nutritional experts and fitness instructors will tell you that diligence is key. I have to remember that word in this go round. DILIGENCE!!! And choices. I realize that support is a big factor for me. I enjoy having people around me to give me reminders now and again that I am doing great or doing poorly.

So it begins. I will post the original weight this after noon in an edit. We can watch my transformation together. Part of this process is to cut out the amount of alcohol that I consume. Thats going to be a bit more difficult. But I plan on succeeding without a lot of fanfare. I just have to.

Thanks for your patience while I battle out my fight for fitness and weight loss. At the end I should have an awesome swim suit shot to put up (in keeping with my increasing "porn-like" photos here at not just noun & verbs - HA!).

edit: weigh in is next week. whew! bring on the ice cream! :giggles:

edit: edit: weighed in at 230. YIKES!!! "wires her jaw shut"