This morning, I had a little crying jag. I was feeling good and all of the sudden started crying. I think I need some therapy. Why is it we can't be comfortable when good things happen to us? Or is that just me? Hm...I need to analyze this a bit so I can be happy when I am happy, and sad when I am sad. Do I feel guilty for being happy? Feel guilty for the pleasures I am allowed in this life? Am I worried that someone doesn't have it as good as I do, so I should feel sad?
Must be some leftovers from the childhood days. I rarely think about all that now, its history. But there is some residual in there keeping me from being in the now enjoying the little things. And that really isn't something I want to live with. DAMN! just when I had it all together, someone pulled out the rug from underneath me, and it was ME! :sheesh:
blah blah blech! anyway... Guster on the new NANO! :cheesygrin:
Come Downstairs and Say Hello ~ Guster
"Dorothy moves to click her ruby shoes
Right in tune with Dark Side of the Moon
Someone someone could tell me
Where I belong
Be calm be brave it'll be okay
No more messing around and living underground
And New Year's resolutions
By this time next year I won't be here
I turn on turn on MTV the volume's down
Lips move they say
It'll be okay
To tell you the truth I've said it before
Tomorrow I start in a new direction
One last time these words from me
I�m never saying them again
And I shut the light
And listen as my watch unwinds
To tell you the truth I've said it before
Tomorrow I start in a new direction
I know I've been half-asleep
I�m never doing that again
I look straight at what's coming ahead
And soon it's going to change in a new direction
Every night as I'm falling asleep
These words repeated in my head
Voices calling from a yellow road
To come downstairs and say hello
Don't be shy just say hello
To tell you the truth I've said it before
Tomorrow I start in a new direction
I know I've been half-asleep
I'm never doing that again
I look straight at what's coming ahead
And soon it's going to change in a new direction
Every night as I'm falling asleep
Those words repeated in my head"
Hang in there honey, this too shall pass. We all have days like that, at least you're able to recognize it and deal with it.
ReplyDeleteHas it been gray and gloomy there lately? I know I always get down when I don't see the sun for several days.
I cry all the time when I'm happy - I cry whenever I feel something deeply. Hell, girlfriend - I cry at parades. Were you truly feeling bad about feeling good, or just experiencing a rare glimpse of the true richness of your emotional body? In any case, be well, know you are loved.
ReplyDeleteCrying is nice. So's laughing.
ReplyDeleteSo is drinking beer. Strangely... I do all three around the same time.
You gotta do what you gotta do-- I had a crying fit last night. Just relax, and enjoy things as they come to you *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI had a crying fit yesterday too, what is going on?!
ReplyDeleteI rarely cry......I cant remember the last time I cried...maybe during football season when my son scored the winning TD.And, those were just tiny tears, THATS how long it has been...sh*t!
hang tough..you deserve all the good things that come your way :)
Maybe it's all the Satan music you listen to. That's what they always told me, until I showed them my hatchet collection.
ReplyDeleteyeah, but at least satan listens to tunes that RAWK
ReplyDeleteI have days like that sometimes..
ReplyDeleteI bet you're feeling better now though...
and Cool Nano!
Hang in there honey.....
ReplyDeletecool song, btw.....
Aw, everybody has days like that, honey. Or maybe you're like me where you're not used to happiness and it kind of sneaks up on you and then you realize it and the fact that you're actually happy makes you cry. Either way hugs for you. :)
ReplyDeleteI LOVE that Guster song. It's one of my favorites.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I wish I could cry more. There are times that I feel emotional hurt and/or emotional pain, and the tears just don't come.