Focus

Focusing on the self is near impossible for me sometimes. I mean i sure do take advantage of situations when I can, but a lot of my energies are spent on making sure others lives are in balance or getting to them what they want or need.

Top of the list would be all my boyfriends in the past 15 years, and now its my son. I could go on to make a long long list, but there is no the point in that. I did the things I wanted to for the people i loved, thats the real point. The issue with that is I end up depleting my energies and not enough is left for taking care of me.  And what energy I have left i don't exert very wisely!!!!

I think I don't want a man that takes care of me so much, as that may make me uncomfortable. A man that could take care of himself? That would be better. But a man that is willing and assertive enough to put forth  efforts and ambitions so we both win? That is the prime directive!!!! Team work with someone makes life so much sweeter. Finding people you can lean on while you journey through lifes struggles is the real deal. 

Perfection is the moment when you see the glow of accomplishment in your partners eyes, knowing you both were a part of making the whole a little better. Moment to moment, living and working together to make it all worthwhile. 

SEE??? I already lost focus on me! Time to try writing stories... Because just maybe getting all the dialogue out of my head would help me stay in the moment of focusing on MY LIFE.